Haunted

"I might see you in my nightmares. Oh how did you get there?
'cause we were once a fairytale, but this is farewell."

I can't escape my mind. I can't escape from you. It's like everything I do, everywhere I've been, you're there. Sometimes I want to pull out my hair and scream. Sometimes I just break down and cry. I'm being haunted by the ghost of who you once were; who we once were.

I don't sleep. Dreams of you consume me. They're more like nightmares because I don't want them there; I don't want you there. It makes me wonder if you've truly left my heart and not the you who you are now, but who you used to be. The person you were with me.

I lost you to a drug, how pathetic is that? It changed you. It destroyed you. It changed and destroyed us. How am I supposed to forget 450 days of my life spent with you? Is this normal? Am I not supposed to be over this yet?

Just get the fuck out of my head!

Uncertainty

"I shouldn't love you, but I want to. I just can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move. I can't look away."

He's perfect yet completely unattainable
His uncertainty is killing me
This is the last place I want to be
To be the last place in your mind
Maybe we've gone too deep
But your uncertainty is killing me.

This came unexpectedly
But there is so much we don't know
Like the love we could share together
Or how we'd mean it when we whisper "forever."
I guess for now I'm on my own.

The weeks pass by
But in my heart and in my mind
You won't leave me broken
'Cause you can't deny there is something here
Something that you know you can mend
So baby don't leave me hangin'
I need you to lose this uncertainty
And realize you belong with me.

I wrote that listening to "Uncertainty" by The Fray, so I kind of copped some of their lyrics but who cares. My feelings, my words, my thoughts, I feel the same.