Thoughts

"This I need to save: I choose my final thoughts today,
switching off with you."

I've come to realize that I hide my feelings better than I thought anyone ever could. I hide them so well I'm almost convince myself I'm okay. I'm not okay, I'm never okay. You could ask me if I was or how I was feeling and I'd lie. I don't know why it's so evitable for me to explain my feelings. I can see how unhealthy it is on myself. It's like I'm looking at myself through a mirror and I can see the contusions on my body from being uncommunicative.
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